For some reason, the runway bride story a few weeks back was a source of my rather twisted fascination and endless amusement. I know. You noticed. Perhaps that is because I am scared that I will never get married given how my dating life has fared lately, hence the warped sense of pleasure over a stranger's meltdown over a life event that seems out of my reach.
But it stopped being funny when I read the story about her past arrests and prosecution for shoplifting. Let me explain.
There is a myriad of temptations I wrestle with on a daily basis, but strangely, substance abuse and shoplifting are among the vices that I have never been tempted to commit.
The idea of consuming non-nutritional chemicals to alter my mind has never appealed to me, not necessarily because of deeply held morals, but rather because of the fear of losing control over my faculties. I take anti-cold pills as the absolute last resort if other measures such as resting fail. And never have I ever been tempted to take into possession something that I have not paid for. Software piracy and downloading music illegally are out of the question. Can't explain that one.
As strange as it may sound, I feel some guilt over not having been subject to such temptations which many are bombarded with and succumb to, ruining their lives in the process. Perhaps it amounts to something akin to "survivor guilt" which this site
defines as "a phenomenon often experienced by those who escape from a disaster that seriously injures and kills others." Individuals dealing with this type of guilt are said to believe that they survived at the expense of those who didn't. Is the absence of temptation on my part at the expense of people like the runaway bride and chronic drug abusers?
There is no profound take to offer here other than my own observations. Now talk amongst yourselves. I will give you a topic: Rhode Island which is neither a road nor an island ... (or something like that. Does anyone remember the exact line? Dang, how I wish I could mimick that New York accent.)