Sunday, April 20, 2008

Update

Noah's tummy has grown by almost two inches just from yesterday. The bloating is caused by an internal hemorrhage from the abdominal area under assault from the malignant tumor.

Although lethargy, not pain is the primary symptom, that he doesn't even want to go for a short walk tells me that he is no longer enjoying his life as a dog.

The line between letting him go, and giving him a fighting chance has not been easy to draw. But with the rapid deterioration of his health, I have come to terms with letting him go. I should not continue to let my love for him come at the expense of the quality of his life.

This will be our last night together, and I will stay with him during the day tomorrow until my friends arrive to join me. Let's hope that nothing catastrophic happens until then.

I have been running through in my head how I am going to load him into the car, take that dreaded drive, unload him, and walk him to the room at the vet where he will spend the last moments of his life. And hold him in my arms while he peacefully goes to sleep.

Don't feel sorry for me. I have been the luckiest dog owner ever. Thank you Noah for 11 wonderful years.

14 Comments:

At April 21, 2008 5:46 AM, Blogger grace said...

David,
My thoughts and prayers are with you today. I will continue to pray as you grieve the loss of your friend.

 
At April 21, 2008 5:46 AM, Blogger Amber said...

I know you don't want me to feel sorry, but I've got these tears running down my face that I can't seem to make stop.

 
At April 21, 2008 6:18 AM, Blogger co_heir said...

David, I know what it's like to let a loved canine companion go. My prayers are with you today.

 
At April 21, 2008 8:05 AM, Blogger Friar Tuck said...

Hurting for you today....

 
At April 21, 2008 9:53 AM, Blogger Jenny said...

:( So sorry to hear that this is the end of such a wonderful friendship between you and Noah.

 
At April 21, 2008 12:16 PM, Blogger L-girl said...

David, I blogged about you today, but didn't mention you by name, until I was sure you were ready to be public. I will link to this now.

Noah is lucky to have had you as a friend, and you are lucky to have had him.

I'm so sorry about this. You know my heart is with you today, and as you get through the days and weeks ahead.

 
At April 21, 2008 12:54 PM, Blogger Amy said...

David, you don't know me, but I post often on wmtc, and I saw Laura's post today. The tears are now running down my cheeks even though I don't know you or Noah. But all dog lovers know each other in some deeper way, and so I know you in that way. I have been where you have been and made the same decision for the same reasons. I hope that all goes as peacefully as it can for you and for Noah. My heart will be with you.

 
At April 21, 2008 2:24 PM, Blogger gito said...

This is so sad, I went through the same situation with my dog(Jady) about a year ago, she had too terminal cancer. One thing I can't forget is the last day when we were together, that day will stay with me forever..

 
At April 21, 2008 2:29 PM, Blogger Barbara(aka Layla) said...

David, I don't think we "feel sorry for you", I think we empathize with your pain and care about you. Like Amber, I am sitting here bawling like a baby. It is one of the hardest things in life to do (I honestly believe this) and you need all the support and understanding you can get right now if you know it or not.

Please keep posting and telling us about how you are feeling during the grieving process. Its painful but important to mourn this loss.

Don't try to be a tough guy or Amber and I will show up at your house and force you to cry with us :)

 
At April 21, 2008 5:16 PM, Anonymous Abby said...

David --

I really wish Noah had been able to meet Jeter, Casey and Sophie when I met him. What a great, great dog he was -- and always will be, in your heart.

I hope you're getting some comfort from friends, and from the knowledge that you gave one great dog a very, very happy life.

 
At April 21, 2008 5:50 PM, Blogger Magneto said...

Dave,
I am sorry that I didn't get a chance to spend more time with you and Noah recently. Noah has been a very special companion, and I am glad to have known him through you. I don't know what else to say right now, but that I give you my heartfelt sympathy, and that I will remember him very fondly.

 
At April 21, 2008 6:14 PM, Blogger Brian Buriff said...

I know people have differing views on this - but I like to think that somehow somewhere our Lord has a new four-legged companion walking very close to Him tonight...bright eyed, tail-wagging, restored. I just like to think that. David, you are in my prayers.

 
At April 21, 2008 6:32 PM, Blogger Gretchen said...

Oh David, I'm very sorry for your loss. It sounds like he has been a faithful friend. God cares even for the sparrow so he will take care of Noah as well.

 
At April 25, 2008 2:56 AM, Blogger rubyslipperlady said...

I celebrate Noah's life with you, David.

 

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